Dance Macabre 7-7-2016

Hi kids!
Welcome to the home of my personal blog. I've entitled it Teaching My Skeletons How To Dance. I've got a bunch of things hiding in my human closet that need to be aired out. I have a career that requires no movement or exercise. My job rarely sees another life form. Working on other artist's songs is usually unfulfilling. All this is has become unacceptable. I've never been afraid of my fears because they are always with me. It has become a bit like The Stockholm Syndrome. I have learned to find comfort in my life as it is, no matter how unfulfilling because it is safe. I hate safe. Years ago...like 1983, I did a gig with a fairly well known artist from Long Island. I was filling in. I did a good job but I played it "safe". I knew I could have stretched out a bit more. I was allowed. But I edited myself and played it safe. And I've been kicking myself since then  for that one night. The thing about playing for other people is, you have to be professional and give them what they want. And I swear, all you need to do is put on some music to really hear how uncreative and cookie cutter most music is. So...my way around it? Stop working for them UNLESS I am allowed to do what I do. That is what my future holds. A life dancing across 6 strings, ready to fall in between if I have to. I accept my fate.
I am moving in 2 weeks. For the following 3 months I will be without a studio. I will spend that time practicing, learning about myself, Getting my body moving again....basically relearning where I was heading 30 years ago. It all changed for several reasons 30 years ago this coming November. Is it a mere coincidence I am now ready to pick up the pieces, open the closet where I hid myself, and get my substructure back in the game? New life, new city, new music.
Join me on this ride....I won't be holding back.
Ron

7 comments

  • Keith O'Brien

    Keith O'Brien Long Island

    I would like to be a "Skeleton In Good Standing" and I promise to read your blog and support it. Thank you for your consideration. Humbly, a Finger Bone.

    I would like to be a "Skeleton In Good Standing" and I promise to read your blog and support it. Thank you for your consideration. Humbly, a Finger Bone.

  • Susan Bailey

    Susan Bailey Central MA

    Looking forward to seeing where this goes. I've played it safe all my life and funny thing is I want to break out too! My problem has been being utilitarian about my art. Now through writing I hope to change that -- reading sure helps. An interesting trio of books (new bio of 19th century woman author, old bio of Bronson Alcott and 2010 memoir, "Just Kids" by Patti Smith) are pushing me in the right direction. What is pushing you?

    Looking forward to seeing where this goes. I've played it safe all my life and funny thing is I want to break out too! My problem has been being utilitarian about my art. Now through writing I hope to change that -- reading sure helps. An interesting trio of books (new bio of 19th century woman author, old bio of Bronson Alcott and 2010 memoir, "Just Kids" by Patti Smith) are pushing me in the right direction. What is pushing you?

  • Ron Zabrocki

    Ron Zabrocki

    Thanks Keith! Appreciate the support!

    Thanks Keith! Appreciate the support!

  • Ron Zabrocki

    Ron Zabrocki

    Susan! A new start. Maybe it's going home. Age certainly is pushing me. Age gives me freedom to not care anymore. And living with fear can be terrible. Fear of being replaced or criticized. But once again...I don't care anymore! Lol!

    Susan! A new start. Maybe it's going home. Age certainly is pushing me. Age gives me freedom to not care anymore. And living with fear can be terrible. Fear of being replaced or criticized. But once again...I don't care anymore! Lol!

  • Ron Zabrocki

    Ron Zabrocki

    PS...still figuring out this blog and how to reply to individual posts...

    PS...still figuring out this blog and how to reply to individual posts...

  • Dan

    Dan

    Heh I know all about how playing it safe works. Some close friends of mine have always taken risks chances never held back and have been very fortunate. Successful and living comfortable. Me on the other hand feeling I have far to much to lose and worry for my family take it safe. My living is not so comfortable. The want and need to take risks is there and if I ever get conformation from my family its ok, I will do it. Playing safe holds you back and hides potential.

    Heh I know all about how playing it safe works. Some close friends of mine have always taken risks chances never held back and have been very fortunate. Successful and living comfortable. Me on the other hand feeling I have far to much to lose and worry for my family take it safe. My living is not so comfortable. The want and need to take risks is there and if I ever get conformation from my family its ok, I will do it. Playing safe holds you back and hides potential.

  • Ron Zabrocki

    Ron Zabrocki

    Well said Dan!

    Well said Dan!

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